"I Hate Yu"

I dont need many friends, but I wanted you.

Go here to there
and all the faces change no matter where I am
except about maybe 3.
Number 4
decided to foul out
and I know what I was on.

Blue top and jean shorts.
My favorite colors.
A head full of lies,
I let it slide.

We had dinner recently and I ordered
the burger, as usual.
She ordered something that she didn't
finish.

That's familiar.

She had enough when we drove apart
I didn't have enough
and it showed.
She was tired.
Not I.

Next Sun
I sent a text
No reply

Couple Moons flew by and I sent another
Then I just said "I hate yu".

No reply

Later Days

Dawn & Dominick

And I love you. That dark brown hair, like cocoa beans in Summer's hands. We talk everyday about mozzarella sticks and our future living room. Random things. It's been forever since we've kissed. Couple of weeks. You make me smile. Blue. You make me angry. Day trips. You make me regret. And I love you for making me forget. What am I suppose to be? Different homes. Lavish styles against my modest jeans. We're real. But I live extra lives.

And I love you too. Your hair color changes. Varied lipstick colors. Or maybe it's just lip gloss. Who knows. Sometimes you're really far. Sometimes not so much. Our conversations aren't as clear. Muddy tongues spewing grime. Take what I give. Get what I'm getting. I can't love you forever. Unnatural. You make it seem like it can go on for eternity. Sushi in the Elantra. Yogurt on your kitchen counter. Admire all the wrong things. I have to get my hat from the roommate's shelf. Dinner at Outback. You are all these objects. You'll die before me. Taking her with you.

Later Days

Battle Cry

The battle cry for spoiled youth.

"We're young. We're supposed to drink too much. We're supposed to have bad attitudes and shag each other's brains out. We are designed to party. This is it. Yeah, so a few of us will overdose or go mental. But Charles Darwin said you can't make an omelette without breaking a few eggs. And that's what it's all about breaking eggs! And by eggs, I do mean, getting twatted on a cocktail of Class As. If you could just see yourselves! It breaks my heart. You're wearing cardigans! We had it all. We fucked up bigger and better than any generation that came before us. We were so beautiful! We're screw-ups. I'm a screw-up and I plan to be a screw-up until my late 20s, maybe even my early 30s. And I will shag my own mother before I let her... or anyone else take that away from me!"

Later Days

Miles Away

Im settled back down in the place where it all started,
and it's funny how the past repeats.

There's a push in my head that tells me that I've made things more difficult for her and I to live on.

Hope it doesnt die, otherwise I might inside.

Later Days

What's Good, Im Back

“When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.”
― John Green, Looking for Alaska

 Later Days