The ride is still going on
People said no
Sometimes I listened
Most times I didn't
Now it's another year
Growing more scared
I sold my life away for money
And all I do is party up in Philly
I think I've started falling in loving with the idea of my own
Death-wish
But it started off as a way to put myself through college
A bullet can end that dream too
I'm ready to go back home
I've done some great things
Yet when I'm finished talking to my mum
I say "I love you"
And just hear the dial-tone
Maybe she's not proud of what I'm trying to do
Makes me wonder if she has ever approved
I want a kid later on in life
To be a father, even though everyone will be watching
Because they know I never had my own
So they're waiting for me to mess up
Just to say "I knew he would all along."
They are them
They are me
I think about the bullshit
All my loves, no matter how right
Ended up in caskets
Except one, but
Who knows?
I dont have much luck
My dick gets me into so much trouble
While my head can't decide if it's worth
Saving my soul
Putting all my aggression on a
Bench press
Won't bring grandma back
I've been moving around for so long
And all I can do is write sad poems
Later Days
