Decisions

I didn't truthfully choose to come to Norfolk State.
I was a vigilant high school senior and had already agreed to go to school for college in Florida.
I foolishly waited until a week before my deadline to send off my papers to the school, when my town was hit with a blizzard.
A bad one.
I couldnt go to school for little more than a week.
I was essentially fucked.
I didnt have a back up planned at all.
My counselor luckily enough had connections to Norfolk State and I was admitted with no problems at all.

I hadnt even seen the school until I moved in.
I was highly disappointed.

Today, my friend Natasha and I was talking about the future and how we didnt like where we were.
She helped me see I didnt belong here.
It may be a vulgar statement, but...
Im not a nigga.
I have nigga tendencies when Im angry, but overall.... I dont fit in to the stereotype.
I like rock music along with rap.
I write poetry and can be introspective when it comes to life and the world around me.
I hate polo, fades, and majority of popular african american trends.
I rap like asher roth lol.
Aside from numerous differences I can point out between my classmates and myself,
it just boiled down to the fact that Im not happy here.
I love my friends that attend NSU, dont get me wrong, but...
if Im going to be paying the government back for my college education,
shouldn't I be paying for something I enjoyed?
I am content at NSU.
I think I would be happy at ODU.
I believe that ODU is more open minded and accepting to the different people that attend the school.
In a sense, they are more "diverse" than NSU, in my mind.
So,
im transferring.
From now on,
classes will be taken more seriously (they are taken serious now, but my B's can become A's ya know)
and Im shooting for ODU sophomore year because honestly,
I rather be happy than content.

Here,
my schedule consists of:
class, gym, work-study, eat, homework, then dorm.
Every day.
Monday thru Friday.
Weekends vary, but they generally dont offer much.
I need more.
People tell me to put myself out there, but the people Im around every single day aren't open minded, in my opinion.
Not the majority.
My argument may seem heavily flawed, but its something I feel in my heart.
I was always a quirky guy.
My aura, personality, whatever it is just doesnt click here.
So I guess I have to make like my first real college decision and commit to this:
Im transferring to ODU.

Later Days