End of Nigh

So, guess you wanna know where I am now eh?
Welp, back home really.
I gotta help some people and take care of things before I actually depart once and for all.
I currently have nothing to do until New Years, but I enjoy the down-time before the moving starts up again.

I'm looking at credit cards and getting my finances in order.
Learning how to cook meals and applying for gym memberships--it's my new thing.

If anyone new meets me in 2012, they will probably say I'm too old to be so young,
and everyone who know's me now will say I've grown up too fast when they speak to me next year.

I worry a little. I think more often.
Nonetheless, it' the path I've chosen.
Come Feb., I'll be where I need to be until May.

Later Days

Winter

"I am going into an unknown future, but I'm still all here, and still while there's life, there's hope."

The Hangover

I'm trying to get away form these downer posts, but crud keeps happening.
Every day is a shift to whatever plan I have.
Right, left, up, then down
I dont know which way this thing is going next.

This life thing is growing out of control.

Sometimes I wake up and notice Im someone Im not
Sometimes I look in the mirror and dont like what I see

Im starting to get the hangover.
When the parties over and everyone goes home, you sober up.
I've been partying for a long time.

Even though shit kinda sucks right now, the weirdest part of it all is that I'm ok.
I'm perfectly fine with what's coming ahead and it irks the hell out of me because...
?
Can't say.
There's just something in me that wants to carry on.

Later Days

Acid Drop

Drugs
We take that

Later Days

And when you forget about her

She doesn't remind you of the times
No texts, no phone calls, nothing
You began to go on
Forgetting the face, never the name
Soon enough, you dont even wonder how they are doing
Because while you didn't make it together as a potential couple
You must've not been friends at all
She never makes an appearance 
Not even a "Hi"

Makes you ponder on whether the spot in your brain that keeps the memory is a waste


It's not a thing of pride
You just found a better one in life
So you wont go out of your lane
It just grows old
Cause when you start to forget her
You'll rarely be reminded


Later Days

Secrets

“After the first glass, you see things as you wish they were.
After the second, you see things as they are not.
Finally, you see things as they really are,
which is the most horrible thing in the world.”

I saw everyone with me
Literally WITH me
We were an unit
We were one
Everything was fine
Everyone was happy
All the music was perfect
The mood was set
I swear we never fell and never would
It was home

I saw the road as a long stretch
A couple of the people were left behind
But we trudged along
It was a little chilly
Not my favorite weather
The destination had a long line to enter
We climbed
Met some people on the way
New and old
But we got in
And it was worth it
It was real

I saw confrontation
I saw injustice
I was a mediator but it wasn't enough
Hands grabbed me and the floor was cold
All alone
I didn't fight back
They struck me
I spilled blood
And in a world where I thought it was best to get up when knocked down
I found I was wrong
More blood
More fists
Heavier lights
All shining on me so everyone could see what happens to the proud
The right
The innocent
We lose.
It was honest

Later Days

Kovu

Spitting blood
Pissing pride
I'm such a fucking misfit

Yo, on the real, no one out there is going to help me.
Worst part is I can't help my damn self.
Got my mother, my brother, my girl, and I'm still so fucking lost.

Angry at my power-less position,
Im down on the real.
These dark thoughts I have when Im alone.
We tried to be kings in our respective worlds...
Congrats to my crew members who did it (or doing),
But I've failed.
There's no sun.

Never met my Scar and my Zira been gone.
Don't no one love me the way I love them.

Later Days