I do care

Expelling the poison before it eats me.

This is what I get.
I let my guard down.
It was too early to call it love, but it was more than a crush.
I rarely give chances, so it was nice to get where we were.
I let my guard down and this is karma for some fucked up shit I did about 2 weeks ago.

She's amazing in every sense of the word
and
She belongs to the world.

I lose people regularly, claiming I don't care.
Right when I noticed that we could be going south, I almost said it again:

"I dont care, fuck this."

But I didn't. I do care. I really cared.
I'd look at her and think "I hope I don't fuck this up".
Then my thoughts grew to "Shit, I'm screwed. I'm all in for this girl."

Now I'm here again, alone.

It only hurts cause I really figured I knew best,
thought I knew when someone was different from the rest.