Normalcy
Normal, seeeeeee?
Practice peace with your soul and you're viewing all your mistakes through a telescope mounted on binoculars.
She didn't even wish me a happy birthday
whereas I
bothered my friends with questions and concerns on if I should've called or texted the phrase
when hers came around.
We came to an unanimous decision on texting.
But it was well deserved, the lack of reciprocating the act on my end from her point of view
I had a cunning plan last time I talked to her, one I revealed when it wasn't proving fruitful
I let it all loose like a James Bond villain near the climax, when the bad guy believes he's gonna win since Bond is tied up to some plank that's slowly descending down a shark infested river.
I let it all loose: my intentions, how I did it, how I was gonna do it, everything
Well Bond got a lot of gadgets, so as he gets loose to foil the villain's plans, so she unraveled my work.
It still kind of hurt. I mean, it was my birthday and all.
Fuck it, let's retreat to the infamous apathy we've all grown accustom
She had a head start anyway with it.
But im so okay now a days, its startling
I just know what to do from now on and it's shocking
I can't even think like I used to a year ago
I tried so hard one night and 3 days and half a twilight ago
I have people calling me, trying to save my soul....for real
They call and I listen, but it aint happening
The hardest thing to do is forgive yourself
Later Days, Longer Nights
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