Boom Boom Clap

Today was legit.
Im just waiting for my check from work-study so I can start saving for summer OC 2011 with my homeboys.
On a more annoying tidbit,
I dont know why this stuck in my head today, but this chick named Cherelle, who was attracted to me at school, gave me a memorable line that seems small to eavesdroppers, but so
so
much more to me.
I was in the girl's lobby waiting for my pal to come down from the dorm and a friend was at the door, trying to get in, but her card was out of her reach.
I knew this friend,
we kid around with each other and say playful jabs to each other with no ill-feelings to the words we spewed, cause we got vicious sometimes.
So I didn't open the door.
I let her do it herself.
Cherelle says, "Be a gentlemen and open the door. You so reckless and don't do nothing. "
By this time, she's already in the door, but I turned to Cherelle and said,
"She got it."
Then she turned and uttered this phrase, covered in broken glass and tar,
"Oh my gosh, you aint right. Goodbye", with a haughty turn and roll of eyes.
"You aint gotta come at me like that ma"..my reply

Goodbye? What the hell?
You fail to see the shining aspect of my personality that calms storms and inflicts wounds:
I dont care about your opinion nor you.
I know you probably reading this and thinking this wasnt big, but its one of those things that you have to be there to feel a way about it.
How can she dismiss someone who isnt in vying for her eyes or, to a less extent, even acknowledgement of her presence?
This chick comes around  me and crud,
says here hi's,
grabs her hug if she feeling bold,
and generally is trying to get me to chase her.
This brings me to the topic in my head for the day.

Females fail day after day when they group me with these hungry dogs of Norfolk state.
If I gotta be an animal to them,
please...
call me a wolf.
Solitary, refined, more aggressive,
yet eat only when I wanna.
I dont chase,
I rarely hunt,
and you want to tell me goodbye?
I wanted to ask her when did I EVER say
hello.

Let me tell you about what I see everyday:
Numerous niggas wearing brand name tags trying to catch her (speaking in a sense of the female population on campus) attention,
shitload of daps to more niggas who are brainwashed to the highest extent,
and my favorite part...
the attention fix.
I never seen soo many hugs given out on an Intervention episode.
They need a hug from every female they know.
Ok, I get it...
you known on campus dawg, cool.
How ya GPA though?
Im never gonna say Im the shit,
cause Im not....I honestly think im a piece of shit.
Modesty comes with its faults,
but still....
its degrading.
Females hawk all the time that they dont need a man.
I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-C-E
That old song, but it rings true.
So are guys the opposite?
Are we soo dependent on the attention of females that we faithfully
drug ourselves with their half-hearted (or whole) smiles and miniscule chit-chat before
embarking on to our next class?
Its the fix that I see on campus
and I cant tell nothing but the truth.
Theres a large divide between being friendly and being disillusioned.
I do admit,
Im bashing a side I dont know anything of.
I keep to my kin and myself.
Im not all over the place,
Im not popular,
Im uncanny in all its forms.
I never was able to conform to cliches and cliques, so
I guess all the ladies really do say goodbye to me...
even if they never knew me because
I didn't say hello.
Anti-social?
Perhaps...
but I got my anti-drug.

Dogs chase moving cars,
not realizing cars can kill them.

Later Days