You need me here.
You count on me to bring peace to the life your in
Digital beeps blaring in radio transmissions,
signaling some cops around the area nearby... drowning out your tears.
"Come home."
Thats all you see now-a-days and you just want to run away.
Girl,
you wanna see the world.
Oh green world.
Take a ride on the wild side
and you'll never go home.
Feral children who never learned to speak.
Can it be?
Can we be it?
Only the world has eyes that see us.
So it watches us light cigarettes and blunts on it's chin.
Its only me and you.
Why would we ruin it with company?
Later Days
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Maybe You Can Have It All
Yeah buddy!
Im ready to tear through the real world with iron claws.
I know a lot of people who haven't found themselves yet and Im happy to not be in there bracket.
Honestly,
I dont know what I want, but I know who I am.
Joseph Campbell once said "The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are" and
I couldn't agree more.
A girl once told me to stop walking around town with a smirk on my face.
My mum hid my Chuck Taylors one night because she thought I could never slow down.
People try to tame their spirits too much for my taste,
although it never shows.
I'm learning the rules, so I know how to break them properly.
Its just a crazy phase I'm having....
Im hoping to make it a habit;
a habit to live by.
When there's no one to stop you,
who can limit your reach?
I gotta tell ya,
life's so much sweeter when you take the risks.
Now, I don't know anything but seizing the moment.
They say you can't have your cake and eat it too, but
what if one day you woke up
and figured out they were wrong.
Just maybe,
maybe you can have it all.
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I needed that vacation.
Shout-out to my people at Temple...
yall did more than yall even know.
Later Days
Im ready to tear through the real world with iron claws.
I know a lot of people who haven't found themselves yet and Im happy to not be in there bracket.
Honestly,
I dont know what I want, but I know who I am.
Joseph Campbell once said "The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are" and
I couldn't agree more.
A girl once told me to stop walking around town with a smirk on my face.
My mum hid my Chuck Taylors one night because she thought I could never slow down.
People try to tame their spirits too much for my taste,
although it never shows.
I'm learning the rules, so I know how to break them properly.
Its just a crazy phase I'm having....
Im hoping to make it a habit;
a habit to live by.
When there's no one to stop you,
who can limit your reach?
I gotta tell ya,
life's so much sweeter when you take the risks.
Now, I don't know anything but seizing the moment.
They say you can't have your cake and eat it too, but
what if one day you woke up
and figured out they were wrong.
Just maybe,
maybe you can have it all.
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I needed that vacation.
Shout-out to my people at Temple...
yall did more than yall even know.
Later Days
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Untitled Grenade Thoughts
Where did I begin?
I started when my mum stopped feeling like a mother and
right about that time when I knew my father would never come back home.
I began with that first MTV music video of some white guys stringing blaring guitar cords and shouting words of freedom, chaos, and energy.
From there it was uphill.
I started off emo and then went full blown unhinged.
My society never accepted me.
My home was always cold because my mum left me alone.
I started at the end,
so where did I begin?
Later Days
I started when my mum stopped feeling like a mother and
right about that time when I knew my father would never come back home.
I began with that first MTV music video of some white guys stringing blaring guitar cords and shouting words of freedom, chaos, and energy.
From there it was uphill.
I started off emo and then went full blown unhinged.
My society never accepted me.
My home was always cold because my mum left me alone.
I started at the end,
so where did I begin?
Later Days
Sunday, January 16, 2011
I dont care anymore
Man,
Im going to be a bachelor forever.
Fuck trying to settle down.
I try and try, but some shit always happens.
Maybe its not meant for me and ya know what?
Im not gonna fight it.
This time,
Im staying in the jungle.
Its the only place that accepts me.
Fuck love, appreciation, and stability.
All I know is lust, rage, and chaos.
My favorite cups of tea.
Later Days
Im going to be a bachelor forever.
Fuck trying to settle down.
I try and try, but some shit always happens.
Maybe its not meant for me and ya know what?
Im not gonna fight it.
This time,
Im staying in the jungle.
Its the only place that accepts me.
Fuck love, appreciation, and stability.
All I know is lust, rage, and chaos.
My favorite cups of tea.
Later Days
Saturday, January 15, 2011
One Lost World
Where do the teenage dinosaurs and misfits roam?
I myself could never fit in, so does that mean I have to stand out in the rebel cold?
Doesn't standing out have its own code and cliques?
Yeah, it does. Just looser rules and brighter clothes.
I dig my teeth into quirky threads and witty comments created on the spot because
no matter what they say,
we are all still kids tryna grow up.
Im in a prehistoric type of mind when everyone looks forward to the future.
In my own world with miracle eyes.
Later Days
I myself could never fit in, so does that mean I have to stand out in the rebel cold?
Doesn't standing out have its own code and cliques?
Yeah, it does. Just looser rules and brighter clothes.
I dig my teeth into quirky threads and witty comments created on the spot because
no matter what they say,
we are all still kids tryna grow up.
Im in a prehistoric type of mind when everyone looks forward to the future.
In my own world with miracle eyes.
Later Days
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Life is wonderful...but why?
Im ready to go to UMBC.
I know it might be challenging, but I can pull it off with a B+ and better in all classes.
Aside from that, Im a charizard.
Later Days
I know it might be challenging, but I can pull it off with a B+ and better in all classes.
Aside from that, Im a charizard.
Later Days
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
"You are starting to become more predictable"
I dont know what to do.
I know why I do what I do.
I get why I am who I am,
but whats my problem?
I have a problem keeping people close.
I can openly admit that the person who wants (or wanted) me I deny most
and what I want I cant have.
Its fucked up,
but whats worst is the fact that I know whats going on.
I have my reasons for not going with what wants me.
Its all in my heart, yet Im just tired of not getting who "I" want.
Aside from that emo crud,
I guess Im starting to become more predictable, so says someone.
Case point right there.
Am I losing myself or am I already lost?
I regret soo much, its crazy.
Well, in regards to females.
I could've been happy... a longgg time ago,
but I think it would've been too early for it.
Yes.
I think it would've been selfish to be happy with someone early in life.
You dont learn lessons, heartache, and a crud more if your happy early on.
I know Im wrong and right, but it just seemed like I would be living a naive life.
I just dont know anymore.
Its getting about that time in life where you settle and I burned all my bridges in some way...
if it wasnt the four loko can that summer night then it was just my antics.
Where is the silver lining in this storm?
Later days
I know why I do what I do.
I get why I am who I am,
but whats my problem?
I have a problem keeping people close.
I can openly admit that the person who wants (or wanted) me I deny most
and what I want I cant have.
Its fucked up,
but whats worst is the fact that I know whats going on.
I have my reasons for not going with what wants me.
Its all in my heart, yet Im just tired of not getting who "I" want.
Aside from that emo crud,
I guess Im starting to become more predictable, so says someone.
Case point right there.
Am I losing myself or am I already lost?
I regret soo much, its crazy.
Well, in regards to females.
I could've been happy... a longgg time ago,
but I think it would've been too early for it.
Yes.
I think it would've been selfish to be happy with someone early in life.
You dont learn lessons, heartache, and a crud more if your happy early on.
I know Im wrong and right, but it just seemed like I would be living a naive life.
I just dont know anymore.
Its getting about that time in life where you settle and I burned all my bridges in some way...
if it wasnt the four loko can that summer night then it was just my antics.
Where is the silver lining in this storm?
Later days
Monday, January 10, 2011
Stats
I've been alive for 18 years
and got my license when I was 17.
Theres $16 in my wallet,
15 seconds left until my hot pocket gets out of the microwave,
and only 14 years I've lost to naivety.
13 minutes ago I was walking around naked in my house,
yet when I was 12 I had a cat named Simba who I loved more than anything.
There is 11 people in my immediate family,
10 reasons Im an ass to females, and
9 places you catch me when im in the world.
I own 8 pairs of shoes and
7 is my favorite number.
The number 6 reminds me of the devil,
although I have faith in 5 things.
I've hidden in 4 girl's closet,
I have 3 tattoos,
maybe drink about 2 times a week,
and get around the world in 1 car.
Goddamn, I love life.
Later Days
and got my license when I was 17.
Theres $16 in my wallet,
15 seconds left until my hot pocket gets out of the microwave,
and only 14 years I've lost to naivety.
13 minutes ago I was walking around naked in my house,
yet when I was 12 I had a cat named Simba who I loved more than anything.
There is 11 people in my immediate family,
10 reasons Im an ass to females, and
9 places you catch me when im in the world.
I own 8 pairs of shoes and
7 is my favorite number.
The number 6 reminds me of the devil,
although I have faith in 5 things.
I've hidden in 4 girl's closet,
I have 3 tattoos,
maybe drink about 2 times a week,
and get around the world in 1 car.
Goddamn, I love life.
Later Days
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
The Shadow In the Mirror
My birth was a deathwish.
I dont even understand why I get up in the morning.
Society has been soo brainwashed, its ridiculous.
If I have to start anywhere, I would start with race.
African Americans have been taught mostly everything by Europeans.
Think about it...
We were introduced to God (Christianity) during slavery times because the Europeans exposed us to it.
We used to believe in deities in our home land,
so is my religion a lie?
We (using race again) believe in making it on our own, but
if you look back to our roots, we preached community and helping one another,
so are my goals jaded?
On a more global matter, who says we have to do anything? Why do I get up in the morning and try? People in my life have been telling I gotta make it, but why? Everyone places so much emphasis and pressure on making it in the world. The profession I seek wont gain me 6 figures, unless I make a book that gets adapted into a popular movie. Honestly, I dont like the pressure. In a world of pill poppers and gang bangers, Im just want to find my place among the poets, but even then that doesn't generate financial stability, just inner peace.
If I dont make it, do I automatically fail? Success is the main goal, but what defines success?
What makes success right? All these questions and no one can really answer them. I just dont get why we have to do anything.
I wonder if Im the only one who asks it, but....
when you look in the mirror, are you a total product of creativity or a social norm?
Later Days
I dont even understand why I get up in the morning.
Society has been soo brainwashed, its ridiculous.
If I have to start anywhere, I would start with race.
African Americans have been taught mostly everything by Europeans.
Think about it...
We were introduced to God (Christianity) during slavery times because the Europeans exposed us to it.
We used to believe in deities in our home land,
so is my religion a lie?
We (using race again) believe in making it on our own, but
if you look back to our roots, we preached community and helping one another,
so are my goals jaded?
On a more global matter, who says we have to do anything? Why do I get up in the morning and try? People in my life have been telling I gotta make it, but why? Everyone places so much emphasis and pressure on making it in the world. The profession I seek wont gain me 6 figures, unless I make a book that gets adapted into a popular movie. Honestly, I dont like the pressure. In a world of pill poppers and gang bangers, Im just want to find my place among the poets, but even then that doesn't generate financial stability, just inner peace.
If I dont make it, do I automatically fail? Success is the main goal, but what defines success?
What makes success right? All these questions and no one can really answer them. I just dont get why we have to do anything.
I wonder if Im the only one who asks it, but....
when you look in the mirror, are you a total product of creativity or a social norm?
Later Days
Monday, January 3, 2011
Anger
My high.
The wrath that engulfs my enemies in mass confusion.
Its the energy I thrive off of when all seems wrong,
but is it healthy?
Is it safe?
I've never really questioned myself when it came to my anger hurting someone else.
My best friend, Gary, says I get stuff done when it comes,
yet Amellia says its abnormal and wholly destructive.
Im pretty easy going; people know this.
Few have seen me with my eyes wide,
nostrils flared, and voice high.
I think I want to keep it that way.
Its the monster in me that I keep under wraps.
Bottled up, although its not right.
Its the monster in me which keeps me level headed.
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Its been a long break and I swear this is starting to feel like the real world.
Later Days
The wrath that engulfs my enemies in mass confusion.
Its the energy I thrive off of when all seems wrong,
but is it healthy?
Is it safe?
I've never really questioned myself when it came to my anger hurting someone else.
My best friend, Gary, says I get stuff done when it comes,
yet Amellia says its abnormal and wholly destructive.
Im pretty easy going; people know this.
Few have seen me with my eyes wide,
nostrils flared, and voice high.
I think I want to keep it that way.
Its the monster in me that I keep under wraps.
Bottled up, although its not right.
Its the monster in me which keeps me level headed.
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Its been a long break and I swear this is starting to feel like the real world.
Later Days
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