The Shadow In the Mirror

My birth was a deathwish.
I dont even understand why I get up in the morning.
Society has been soo brainwashed, its ridiculous.
If I have to start anywhere, I would start with race.
African Americans have been taught mostly everything by Europeans.
Think about it...
We were introduced to God (Christianity) during slavery times because the Europeans exposed us to it.
We used to believe in deities in our home land,
so is my religion a lie?
We (using race again) believe in making it on our own, but
if you look back to our roots, we preached community and helping one another,
so are my goals jaded?


On a more global matter, who says we have to do anything? Why do I get up in the morning and try? People in my life have been telling I gotta make it, but why? Everyone places so much emphasis and pressure on making it in the world. The profession I seek wont gain me 6 figures, unless I make a book that gets adapted into a popular movie. Honestly, I dont like the pressure. In a world of pill poppers and gang bangers, Im just want to find my place among the poets, but even then that doesn't generate financial stability, just inner peace.
If I dont make it, do I automatically fail? Success is the main goal, but what defines success?
What makes success right? All these questions and no one can really answer them. I just dont get why we have to do anything.
I wonder if Im the only one who asks it, but....
when you look in the mirror, are you a total product of creativity or a social norm?

Later Days