I'd Like To Buy The World A Drink

How can I put this.....?

Am I here to entertain you? Giving you a break from the cyclone rush of your life, giving you a chance to see that maybe you don't have it so bad? Someone out there is bitching and complaining about trivial stuff that you claim you'd conquer in half the time.

Well everyone needs a break.
Everyone deserves a vacation.

And I forgive a bit too easy and love a lot harder than most, so you're alright by me.

I'm learning this as I go. Everything.
I take light advice from my friends, but my mum and aunts are mostly ignorant of what's happening and who I am.
I don't have any interventions or wise wizards to grant me words that weigh like relics.
Walking with God, I am a young man who is learning that he learns by making the mistakes first.

Entertained yet?

And I had a brief conversation with someone recently,
they said they're worried about me.

The child in me heard a condescending declaration, but the patient adult I'm becoming thought of it as more.
I'm even worried about myself sometimes, but not as much as I wish.

My feet strike the pavement as I go and I've been considering that karma is real after all
and
this was coming my way since I was 15.

All of this, this mess.

So I'd like to buy the world a drink
cause thank God, thank God...
I may grow a little late, but I get there.

I've run out of time in places where I wish I didn't.
Scored some amazing miracles.
Since I was 15, I've been doing some fucked up shit to people and myself.

Sorry doesn't cut it for all the folks.

And I don't know why I say I don't know
when I damn well do...
Been doing it all wrong.

Who knows who they will become or what they'll do in this life.
I literally can not believe I looked up at the ceiling today and said
"I gotta stop following my heart"
Can not believe I said that, can not believe it
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Last night, my VA friends said
"Go fuck 40 bitches man"
"Be a hoe"
"Go fuck some twins, you'll be fine after"

They pissed me off so badly, yet I didn't say a single thing
I almost blocked their texts
Until one of them sent me a private text that read
"Hey man im sorry"

Later Days, Longer Nights